<?xml version="1.0"?>
<feed xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" xml:lang="en-GB">
	<id>https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?action=history&amp;feed=atom&amp;title=Letter_169</id>
	<title>Letter 169 - Revision history</title>
	<link rel="self" type="application/atom+xml" href="https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?action=history&amp;feed=atom&amp;title=Letter_169"/>
	<link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?title=Letter_169&amp;action=history"/>
	<updated>2026-04-15T14:44:27Z</updated>
	<subtitle>Revision history for this page on the wiki</subtitle>
	<generator>MediaWiki 1.38.2</generator>
	<entry>
		<id>https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?title=Letter_169&amp;diff=67250&amp;oldid=prev</id>
		<title>Brett: Text replacement - &quot;Leva&quot; to &quot;Lyova&quot;</title>
		<link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?title=Letter_169&amp;diff=67250&amp;oldid=prev"/>
		<updated>2024-06-25T09:07:55Z</updated>

		<summary type="html">&lt;p&gt;Text replacement - &amp;quot;&lt;a href=&quot;/pages/Leva&quot; class=&quot;mw-redirect&quot; title=&quot;Leva&quot;&gt;Leva&lt;/a&gt;&amp;quot; to &amp;quot;&lt;a href=&quot;/pages/Lyova&quot; class=&quot;mw-redirect&quot; title=&quot;Lyova&quot;&gt;Lyova&lt;/a&gt;&amp;quot;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;table style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122;&quot; data-mw=&quot;interface&quot;&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-content&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-content&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;tr class=&quot;diff-title&quot; lang=&quot;en-GB&quot;&gt;
				&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;← Older revision&lt;/td&gt;
				&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;Revision as of 11:07, 25 June 2024&lt;/td&gt;
				&lt;/tr&gt;&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot; id=&quot;mw-diff-left-l32&quot;&gt;Line 32:&lt;/td&gt;
&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot;&gt;Line 32:&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I don&amp;#039;t know whether I wrote to you that my summer toil had been in vain; my opera can&amp;#039;t go on this season. At first I lapsed into melancholy when I received this sad news — but I came to accept the terrible notion that I was stupidly deceived — and now I&amp;#039;m reconciled. I&amp;#039;m starting to think seriously about a new opera, but I can&amp;#039;t decided on a single subject; meanwhile, I&amp;#039;ve written an [[Romeo and Juliet|overture]] and [[Six Romances, Op. 6|6 romances]]. I&amp;#039;m not going to [[Petersburg]]. My antipathy towards that disgusting town is becoming stronger and stronger.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I don&amp;#039;t know whether I wrote to you that my summer toil had been in vain; my opera can&amp;#039;t go on this season. At first I lapsed into melancholy when I received this sad news — but I came to accept the terrible notion that I was stupidly deceived — and now I&amp;#039;m reconciled. I&amp;#039;m starting to think seriously about a new opera, but I can&amp;#039;t decided on a single subject; meanwhile, I&amp;#039;ve written an [[Romeo and Juliet|overture]] and [[Six Romances, Op. 6|6 romances]]. I&amp;#039;m not going to [[Petersburg]]. My antipathy towards that disgusting town is becoming stronger and stronger.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;[[Vera Vasilyevna]] told me that you&amp;#039;ve completely made peace with Nikolay Vasilyevich, which means you&amp;#039;ll be chained to [[Kamenka]] again for a long time. Perhaps we&amp;#039;ll see you again in the summer, as it&amp;#039;s hardly likely that we&amp;#039;ll be able to take the waters abroad. The fact that the opera won&amp;#039;t be put on this season has upset all my plans; but what alarms me the most is the fact that I absolutely can&amp;#039;t see how I can pay the amount I promised to [[Modest]]. Anyway, this is still a long way off. I was very glad to see [[Tolya]], although I don&amp;#039;t like it that he went to [[Petersburg]] without any need to do so, just to spend money. Adamov writes that he has nothing to worry about; he&amp;#039;s almost certain to secure a position. It&amp;#039;s a shame that the railway doesn&amp;#039;t run straight to &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Kamenka]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, otherwise I would probably come to you for Christmas. I really want to see you all. I kiss [[&lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Leva&lt;/del&gt;]] and all the children. Bow to Nikolay Vasilyevich, Plessky, Derichenka, nanny Fyodora and everyone.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;[[Vera Vasilyevna]] told me that you&amp;#039;ve completely made peace with Nikolay Vasilyevich, which means you&amp;#039;ll be chained to [[Kamenka]] again for a long time. Perhaps we&amp;#039;ll see you again in the summer, as it&amp;#039;s hardly likely that we&amp;#039;ll be able to take the waters abroad. The fact that the opera won&amp;#039;t be put on this season has upset all my plans; but what alarms me the most is the fact that I absolutely can&amp;#039;t see how I can pay the amount I promised to [[Modest]]. Anyway, this is still a long way off. I was very glad to see [[Tolya]], although I don&amp;#039;t like it that he went to [[Petersburg]] without any need to do so, just to spend money. Adamov writes that he has nothing to worry about; he&amp;#039;s almost certain to secure a position. It&amp;#039;s a shame that the railway doesn&amp;#039;t run straight to &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Kamenka]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, otherwise I would probably come to you for Christmas. I really want to see you all. I kiss [[&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Lyova&lt;/ins&gt;]] and all the children. Bow to Nikolay Vasilyevich, Plessky, Derichenka, nanny Fyodora and everyone.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I hug you.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I hug you.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;/table&gt;</summary>
		<author><name>Brett</name></author>
	</entry>
	<entry>
		<id>https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?title=Letter_169&amp;diff=66677&amp;oldid=prev</id>
		<title>Brett: Text replacement - &quot;Lev&quot; to &quot;Leva&quot;</title>
		<link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?title=Letter_169&amp;diff=66677&amp;oldid=prev"/>
		<updated>2024-05-11T17:26:07Z</updated>

		<summary type="html">&lt;p&gt;Text replacement - &amp;quot;&lt;a href=&quot;/pages/Lev&quot; class=&quot;mw-redirect&quot; title=&quot;Lev&quot;&gt;Lev&lt;/a&gt;&amp;quot; to &amp;quot;&lt;a href=&quot;/pages/Leva&quot; class=&quot;mw-redirect&quot; title=&quot;Leva&quot;&gt;Leva&lt;/a&gt;&amp;quot;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;table style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122;&quot; data-mw=&quot;interface&quot;&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-content&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-content&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;tr class=&quot;diff-title&quot; lang=&quot;en-GB&quot;&gt;
				&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;← Older revision&lt;/td&gt;
				&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;Revision as of 19:26, 11 May 2024&lt;/td&gt;
				&lt;/tr&gt;&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot; id=&quot;mw-diff-left-l32&quot;&gt;Line 32:&lt;/td&gt;
&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot;&gt;Line 32:&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I don&amp;#039;t know whether I wrote to you that my summer toil had been in vain; my opera can&amp;#039;t go on this season. At first I lapsed into melancholy when I received this sad news — but I came to accept the terrible notion that I was stupidly deceived — and now I&amp;#039;m reconciled. I&amp;#039;m starting to think seriously about a new opera, but I can&amp;#039;t decided on a single subject; meanwhile, I&amp;#039;ve written an [[Romeo and Juliet|overture]] and [[Six Romances, Op. 6|6 romances]]. I&amp;#039;m not going to [[Petersburg]]. My antipathy towards that disgusting town is becoming stronger and stronger.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I don&amp;#039;t know whether I wrote to you that my summer toil had been in vain; my opera can&amp;#039;t go on this season. At first I lapsed into melancholy when I received this sad news — but I came to accept the terrible notion that I was stupidly deceived — and now I&amp;#039;m reconciled. I&amp;#039;m starting to think seriously about a new opera, but I can&amp;#039;t decided on a single subject; meanwhile, I&amp;#039;ve written an [[Romeo and Juliet|overture]] and [[Six Romances, Op. 6|6 romances]]. I&amp;#039;m not going to [[Petersburg]]. My antipathy towards that disgusting town is becoming stronger and stronger.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;[[Vera Vasilyevna]] told me that you&amp;#039;ve completely made peace with Nikolay Vasilyevich, which means you&amp;#039;ll be chained to [[Kamenka]] again for a long time. Perhaps we&amp;#039;ll see you again in the summer, as it&amp;#039;s hardly likely that we&amp;#039;ll be able to take the waters abroad. The fact that the opera won&amp;#039;t be put on this season has upset all my plans; but what alarms me the most is the fact that I absolutely can&amp;#039;t see how I can pay the amount I promised to [[Modest]]. Anyway, this is still a long way off. I was very glad to see [[Tolya]], although I don&amp;#039;t like it that he went to [[Petersburg]] without any need to do so, just to spend money. Adamov writes that he has nothing to worry about; he&amp;#039;s almost certain to secure a position. It&amp;#039;s a shame that the railway doesn&amp;#039;t run straight to &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Kamenka]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, otherwise I would probably come to you for Christmas. I really want to see you all. I kiss [[&lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Lev&lt;/del&gt;]] and all the children. Bow to Nikolay Vasilyevich, Plessky, Derichenka, nanny Fyodora and everyone.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;[[Vera Vasilyevna]] told me that you&amp;#039;ve completely made peace with Nikolay Vasilyevich, which means you&amp;#039;ll be chained to [[Kamenka]] again for a long time. Perhaps we&amp;#039;ll see you again in the summer, as it&amp;#039;s hardly likely that we&amp;#039;ll be able to take the waters abroad. The fact that the opera won&amp;#039;t be put on this season has upset all my plans; but what alarms me the most is the fact that I absolutely can&amp;#039;t see how I can pay the amount I promised to [[Modest]]. Anyway, this is still a long way off. I was very glad to see [[Tolya]], although I don&amp;#039;t like it that he went to [[Petersburg]] without any need to do so, just to spend money. Adamov writes that he has nothing to worry about; he&amp;#039;s almost certain to secure a position. It&amp;#039;s a shame that the railway doesn&amp;#039;t run straight to &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Kamenka]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, otherwise I would probably come to you for Christmas. I really want to see you all. I kiss [[&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Leva&lt;/ins&gt;]] and all the children. Bow to Nikolay Vasilyevich, Plessky, Derichenka, nanny Fyodora and everyone.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I hug you.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I hug you.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;/table&gt;</summary>
		<author><name>Brett</name></author>
	</entry>
	<entry>
		<id>https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?title=Letter_169&amp;diff=65371&amp;oldid=prev</id>
		<title>Tony at 11:39, 13 February 2024</title>
		<link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?title=Letter_169&amp;diff=65371&amp;oldid=prev"/>
		<updated>2024-02-13T11:39:26Z</updated>

		<summary type="html">&lt;p&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;table style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122;&quot; data-mw=&quot;interface&quot;&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-content&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-content&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;tr class=&quot;diff-title&quot; lang=&quot;en-GB&quot;&gt;
				&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;← Older revision&lt;/td&gt;
				&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;Revision as of 13:39, 13 February 2024&lt;/td&gt;
				&lt;/tr&gt;&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot; id=&quot;mw-diff-left-l28&quot;&gt;Line 28:&lt;/td&gt;
&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot;&gt;Line 28:&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I&amp;#039;m sorry, golubchik, that I haven&amp;#039;t written for ages — and most importantly, that I didn&amp;#039;t let you know anything definitive about the musical governess. My quest hasn&amp;#039;t been crowned with success, and now, recalling what I confidently told you about this matter in the summer, I&amp;#039;m ashamed of myself. But honestly, I didn&amp;#039;t think it would be so difficult.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I&amp;#039;m sorry, golubchik, that I haven&amp;#039;t written for ages — and most importantly, that I didn&amp;#039;t let you know anything definitive about the musical governess. My quest hasn&amp;#039;t been crowned with success, and now, recalling what I confidently told you about this matter in the summer, I&amp;#039;m ashamed of myself. But honestly, I didn&amp;#039;t think it would be so difficult.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;[[Vera Vasilyevna]] stayed here for three weeks and finally left three days ago with [[Tolya]], who&amp;#039;s gone to [[Petersburg]] to look for a position. I saw her repeatedly. I didn&amp;#039;t really like the way she treated me; her covert desire to make me feel that it was all over was very obvious. It made me feel rather awkward around her. The other day I had lunch with [[Nikolay Tchaikovsky|Kolya]] and [[Tolya]] at Lizaveta Sergeyevna&amp;#039;s. She is very kind; Pyotr Vasilyevich is extremely nice. But all the same I can&amp;#039;t get used to them. The day before [[Vera Vasilyevna]]&amp;#039;s departure we visited [[Yekaterina Peresleni|Katerina Vasilyevna &amp;#039;&amp;#039;Peresleni&amp;#039;&amp;#039;]] in the evening. She&amp;#039;s as lovely as ever.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;[[Vera Vasilyevna]] stayed here for three weeks and finally left three days ago with [[Tolya]], who&amp;#039;s gone to [[Petersburg]] to look for a position. I saw her repeatedly. I didn&amp;#039;t really like the way she treated me; her covert desire to make me feel that it was all over was very obvious. It made me feel rather awkward around her. The other day I had lunch with [[Nikolay Tchaikovsky|Kolya]] and [[Tolya]] at Lizaveta Sergeyevna&amp;#039;s. She is very kind; Pyotr Vasilyevich is extremely nice. But all the same I can&amp;#039;t get used to them. The day before [[Vera Vasilyevna]]&amp;#039;s departure&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;, &lt;/ins&gt;we visited [[Yekaterina Peresleni|Katerina Vasilyevna &amp;#039;&amp;#039;Peresleni&amp;#039;&amp;#039;]] in the evening. She&amp;#039;s as lovely as ever.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I don&amp;#039;t know whether I wrote to you that my summer toil had been in vain; my opera can&amp;#039;t go on this season. At first I lapsed into melancholy when I received this sad news — but I came to accept the terrible notion that I was stupidly deceived — and now I&amp;#039;m reconciled. I&amp;#039;m starting to think seriously about a new opera, but I can&amp;#039;t decided on a single subject; meanwhile, I&amp;#039;ve written an [[Romeo and Juliet|overture]] and [[Six Romances, Op. 6|6 romances]]. I&amp;#039;m not going to [[Petersburg]]. My antipathy towards that disgusting town is becoming stronger and stronger.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I don&amp;#039;t know whether I wrote to you that my summer toil had been in vain; my opera can&amp;#039;t go on this season. At first I lapsed into melancholy when I received this sad news — but I came to accept the terrible notion that I was stupidly deceived — and now I&amp;#039;m reconciled. I&amp;#039;m starting to think seriously about a new opera, but I can&amp;#039;t decided on a single subject; meanwhile, I&amp;#039;ve written an [[Romeo and Juliet|overture]] and [[Six Romances, Op. 6|6 romances]]. I&amp;#039;m not going to [[Petersburg]]. My antipathy towards that disgusting town is becoming stronger and stronger.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;/table&gt;</summary>
		<author><name>Tony</name></author>
	</entry>
	<entry>
		<id>https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?title=Letter_169&amp;diff=64603&amp;oldid=prev</id>
		<title>Brett at 13:38, 28 December 2023</title>
		<link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?title=Letter_169&amp;diff=64603&amp;oldid=prev"/>
		<updated>2023-12-28T13:38:52Z</updated>

		<summary type="html">&lt;p&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;table style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122;&quot; data-mw=&quot;interface&quot;&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-content&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;col class=&quot;diff-content&quot; /&gt;
				&lt;tr class=&quot;diff-title&quot; lang=&quot;en-GB&quot;&gt;
				&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;← Older revision&lt;/td&gt;
				&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;Revision as of 15:38, 28 December 2023&lt;/td&gt;
				&lt;/tr&gt;&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot; id=&quot;mw-diff-left-l7&quot;&gt;Line 7:&lt;/td&gt;
&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot;&gt;Line 7:&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Publication={{bib|1940/210|П. И. Чайковский. Письма к родным ; том 1}} (1940), p. 141–142 &amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1955/37|П. И. Чайковский. Письма к близким}} (1955), p. 60 (abridged)&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1959/50|П. И. Чайковский. Полное собрание сочинений ; том V}} (1959), p. 195–196 &amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1981/81| Piotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky. Letters to his family. An autobiography}} (1981), p. 58 (English translation)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Publication={{bib|1940/210|П. И. Чайковский. Письма к родным ; том 1}} (1940), p. 141–142 &amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1955/37|П. И. Чайковский. Письма к близким}} (1955), p. 60 (abridged)&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1959/50|П. И. Чайковский. Полное собрание сочинений ; том V}} (1959), p. 195–196 &amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1981/81| Piotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky. Letters to his family. An autobiography}} (1981), p. 58 (English translation)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;==Text==&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;==Text &lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;and Translation&lt;/ins&gt;==&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{Lettertext&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{Lettertext&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Language=Russian&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Language=Russian&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translator=&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translator=&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Brett Langston&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Original text={{right|Москва&lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;, &lt;/del&gt;19 декабря}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Original text={{right|Москва&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;&lt;/ins&gt;19 декабря}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{centre|Милая и дорогая Саня!}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{centre|Милая и дорогая Саня!}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Прости, голубчик, что давно не писал, — а главное, что ничего окончательного не дал тебе знать а музыкальной гувернантке. Поиски мои не увенчались успехом, и я теперь, припоминая, с какой уверенностью говорил тебе об этом предмете летом, стыжусь за себя. Но, право, я не думал, что это так трудно.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Прости, голубчик, что давно не писал, — а главное, что ничего окончательного не дал тебе знать а музыкальной гувернантке. Поиски мои не увенчались успехом, и я теперь, припоминая, с какой уверенностью говорил тебе об этом предмете летом, стыжусь за себя. Но, право, я не думал, что это так трудно.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot; id=&quot;mw-diff-left-l24&quot;&gt;Line 24:&lt;/td&gt;
&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot;&gt;Line 24:&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{right|П. Чайковский}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{right|П. Чайковский}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translated text=&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translated text=&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;{{right|[[Moscow]]&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;19 December}}&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;{{centre|Dear and kind [[Aleksandra Davydova|Sanya]]!}}&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;I&amp;#039;m sorry, golubchik, that I haven&amp;#039;t written for ages — and most importantly, that I didn&amp;#039;t let you know anything definitive about the musical governess. My quest hasn&amp;#039;t been crowned with success, and now, recalling what I confidently told you about this matter in the summer, I&amp;#039;m ashamed of myself. But honestly, I didn&amp;#039;t think it would be so difficult. &lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;[[Vera Vasilyevna]] stayed here for three weeks and finally left three days ago with [[Tolya]], who&amp;#039;s gone to [[Petersburg]] to look for a position. I saw her repeatedly. I didn&amp;#039;t really like the way she treated me; her covert desire to make me feel that it was all over was very obvious. It made me feel rather awkward around her. The other day I had lunch with [[Nikolay Tchaikovsky|Kolya]] and [[Tolya]] at Lizaveta Sergeyevna&amp;#039;s. She is very kind; Pyotr Vasilyevich is extremely nice. But all the same I can&amp;#039;t get used to them. The day before [[Vera Vasilyevna]]&amp;#039;s departure we visited [[Yekaterina Peresleni|Katerina Vasilyevna &amp;#039;&amp;#039;Peresleni&amp;#039;&amp;#039;]] in the evening. She&amp;#039;s as lovely as ever. &lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;I don&amp;#039;t know whether I wrote to you that my summer toil had been in vain; my opera can&amp;#039;t go on this season. At first I lapsed into melancholy when I received this sad news — but I came to accept the terrible notion that I was stupidly deceived — and now I&amp;#039;m reconciled. I&amp;#039;m starting to think seriously about a new opera, but I can&amp;#039;t decided on a single subject; meanwhile, I&amp;#039;ve written an [[Romeo and Juliet|overture]] and [[Six Romances, Op. 6|6 romances]]. I&amp;#039;m not going to [[Petersburg]]. My antipathy towards that disgusting town is becoming stronger and stronger. &lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;[[Vera Vasilyevna]] told me that you&amp;#039;ve completely made peace with Nikolay Vasilyevich, which means you&amp;#039;ll be chained to [[Kamenka]] again for a long time. Perhaps we&amp;#039;ll see you again in the summer, as it&amp;#039;s hardly likely that we&amp;#039;ll be able to take the waters abroad. The fact that the opera won&amp;#039;t be put on this season has upset all my plans; but what alarms me the most is the fact that I absolutely can&amp;#039;t see how I can pay the amount I promised to [[Modest]]. Anyway, this is still a long way off. I was very glad to see [[Tolya]], although I don&amp;#039;t like it that he went to [[Petersburg]] without any need to do so, just to spend money. Adamov writes that he has nothing to worry about; he&amp;#039;s almost certain to secure a position. It&amp;#039;s a shame that the railway doesn&amp;#039;t run straight to &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Kamenka]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, otherwise I would probably come to you for Christmas. I really want to see you all. I kiss [[Lev]] and all the children. Bow to Nikolay Vasilyevich, Plessky, Derichenka, nanny Fyodora and everyone.&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;I hug you.&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;{{right|P. Tchaikovsky}}&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{DEFAULTSORT:Letter 0169}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{DEFAULTSORT:Letter 0169}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;/table&gt;</summary>
		<author><name>Brett</name></author>
	</entry>
	<entry>
		<id>https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?title=Letter_169&amp;diff=49684&amp;oldid=prev</id>
		<title>Brett: 1 revision imported</title>
		<link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?title=Letter_169&amp;diff=49684&amp;oldid=prev"/>
		<updated>2022-07-12T12:39:13Z</updated>

		<summary type="html">&lt;p&gt;1 revision imported&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;table style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122;&quot; data-mw=&quot;interface&quot;&gt;
				&lt;tr class=&quot;diff-title&quot; lang=&quot;en-GB&quot;&gt;
				&lt;td colspan=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;← Older revision&lt;/td&gt;
				&lt;td colspan=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;Revision as of 14:39, 12 July 2022&lt;/td&gt;
				&lt;/tr&gt;&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-notice&quot; lang=&quot;en-GB&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;mw-diff-empty&quot;&gt;(No difference)&lt;/div&gt;
&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;&lt;/table&gt;</summary>
		<author><name>Brett</name></author>
	</entry>
	<entry>
		<id>https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?title=Letter_169&amp;diff=49683&amp;oldid=prev</id>
		<title>Brett: Text replacement - &quot;все-таки &quot; to &quot;всё-таки &quot;</title>
		<link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?title=Letter_169&amp;diff=49683&amp;oldid=prev"/>
		<updated>2020-01-25T11:29:59Z</updated>

		<summary type="html">&lt;p&gt;Text replacement - &amp;quot;все-таки &amp;quot; to &amp;quot;всё-таки &amp;quot;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;b&gt;New page&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{letterhead &lt;br /&gt;
|Date=1931 December 1869 &lt;br /&gt;
|To=[[Aleksandra Davydova]] &lt;br /&gt;
|Place=[[Moscow]] &lt;br /&gt;
|Language=Russian &lt;br /&gt;
|Autograph=[[Saint Petersburg]] (Russia): {{RUS-SPsc}} (ф. 834, ед. хр. 16, л. 57–58) &lt;br /&gt;
|Publication={{bib|1940/210|П. И. Чайковский. Письма к родным ; том 1}} (1940), p. 141–142 &amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1955/37|П. И. Чайковский. Письма к близким}} (1955), p. 60 (abridged)&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1959/50|П. И. Чайковский. Полное собрание сочинений ; том V}} (1959), p. 195–196 &amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1981/81| Piotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky. Letters to his family. An autobiography}} (1981), p. 58 (English translation)&lt;br /&gt;
}}&lt;br /&gt;
==Text==&lt;br /&gt;
{{Lettertext&lt;br /&gt;
|Language=Russian&lt;br /&gt;
|Translator=&lt;br /&gt;
|Original text={{right|Москва, 19 декабря}}&lt;br /&gt;
{{centre|Милая и дорогая Саня!}}&lt;br /&gt;
Прости, голубчик, что давно не писал, — а главное, что ничего окончательного не дал тебе знать а музыкальной гувернантке. Поиски мои не увенчались успехом, и я теперь, припоминая, с какой уверенностью говорил тебе об этом предмете летом, стыжусь за себя. Но, право, я не думал, что это так трудно.&lt;br /&gt;
&lt;br /&gt;
Вера Вас[ильевна] прожила здесь недели три и уехала наконец дня три тому назад с Толей, который поехал в Петербург хлопотать о месте. Я виделся с ней неоднократно. Её обращение со мной мне не очень-то понравилось; в нем весьма заметно тайное желание дать мне почувствовать, что прежнее все кончилось. Мне с ней от этого как-то неловко было. С Колей и Толей я на днях обедал у Лизав[еты] Серг[еевны]. Она очень любезна; Пётр Вас[ильевич] чрезвычайно мил. Но я всё-таки не могу к ним привыкнуть. Накануне отъезда Вер[ы] Вас[ильевны] были вечером у Катер[ины] Вас[ильевны] &amp;#039;&amp;#039;Переслени&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. Она по-прежнему прелестна.&lt;br /&gt;
&lt;br /&gt;
Не знаю, писал ли я тебе, что мои летние труды напрасны; опера моя идти в нынешнем сезоне не может. Я сначала впал в меланхолию, получив это грустное известие, — но теперь привык к ужасной мысли, что я был глупейшим образом обманут—и успокоился. Начинаю сильно подумывать о новой опере, — но не могу остановиться ни на одном сюжете; а покамест написал увертюру и 6 романсов. В Петербург не поеду; антипатия моя к этому омерзительном городу делается все сильней и сильней.&lt;br /&gt;
&lt;br /&gt;
В[ера] В[асильевна] говорила мне, что ты совсем помирилась с Ник[олаем] Вас[ильевичем]; значит вы опять надолго прикованы к Каменке. Может быть, летом опять увидимся, едва ли удастся съездить полечиться за границу. То обстоятельство, что оперу не дадут в нынешнем сезоне, расстроило все мои планы; но что всего более меня пугает, так это то, что я решительно не вижу, из каких сумм выдам обещанную Модесту сумму. Впрочем, до этого ещё далеко. Очень рад был увидеть Толю, хотя мне и не нравится, что он поехал в Петербург без всякой надобности, только чтоб деньги тратить. Адамов пишет, что ему нечего беспокоиться; что место он наверное получит. Жалко, что железная дорога не идёт прямо до &amp;#039;&amp;#039;Каменки&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, а то бы наверное приехал к тебе на рождество; так хочется взглянуть на вас всех. Целую Леву и всех детей. Кланяйся Ник[олаю] Вас[ильевичу], Плескому, Дериченке, няне Фёдоре и всем.&lt;br /&gt;
&lt;br /&gt;
Обнимаю тебя.&lt;br /&gt;
{{right|П. Чайковский}}&lt;br /&gt;
&lt;br /&gt;
|Translated text=&lt;br /&gt;
}}&lt;br /&gt;
{{DEFAULTSORT:Letter 0169}}&lt;/div&gt;</summary>
		<author><name>Brett</name></author>
	</entry>
</feed>